Ho Hum

Well according to my Stats, on Sunday I was back to 12st 2lb which is where I was 4 weeks’ ago.  How annoying is that?  At the beginning of this malarkey I was dropping so consistently despite still going out and away and then it all shot back up for no apparent reason.

I’m going assume that some of Sunday’s weigh in was period bloat.  Although it’s perfectly possible it was Friday, Saturday and Sunday eating and drinking bloat!  I did do a long walk in the countryside on Saturday though.  And yesterday was pretty much a fruit and veg day (with the odd bit of yoghurt and some Turkish wraps).

So this morning I was pleased to be just over 12st.  But oh my, how wonderful it would be to be below 12st.  Do you think it will happen before the wedding?  I’ve been pretty restrained again today: oats and fruit and yog for brekkie.  Big salad with tinned salmon for (late) lunch.  Same again for supper with a few new potatoes.  And a delicious, single, salty caramel chocolate in between.

Trying on Dresses

So, I went to try on dresses yesterday and with 10 days to go I don’t appear to have succeeded in dropping a dress size.  However I do appear to be a definite size 14 now and not a 14/16 so I guess I can say I’ve dropped half a size.

TOTM is on the way so I could be a little bit bloated – there’s time yet folks.

Bored and Frustrated

I’m getting really bored of this now.  And quite frustrated.  For six weeks I’ve been focussing on my weight.  And nothing is bloody happening.  Oh yes, I know that I haven’t exactly been eating like a rabbit – wine has been drunk, good food has been eaten.  But I’ve got much, much better at not snacking, and I’ve barely touched biscuit, cake or chocolate.  Well maybe not barely, but not very much.

And what’s the result – today I’m a meagre couple of pounds lighter than I was at the start.  I know that I said it’s all been a good learning experience seeing how my weight fluctuates depending on the time of the month, and I know that as my period is expected I’m probably a bit bloated – after all how can I have put on almost 4 lbs in just a couple of days – but honestly, I want to see some results folks.

I have no idea what dress size I am at the moment – all my clothes still fit, none seem any looser than they were at the start of this.  I’ll have to go dress shopping this week – which given the TOTM means I’ll get frustrated and feel fat and horrible.  Not how I wanted it to be.

Size 12 – yeah right, like that’s going to happen any time soon.  Who was I kidding?

Yay

I know it’s not weigh in time, but hurrah, I weighed just over 12st this morning.  I may have been a bit dehydrated but it’s definitely put my in positive mood.  I’m not quite sure what that blip up to 12st 6lbs at the beginning of the week was all about – guess it had a lot to do with bloating and water weight – weird that it really got heavy a few days after my ovulation though.

It’s been quite a revelation following my body quite closely through a monthly cycle.

(This morning’s weight might also have something to do with the fact I didn’t really have supper last night.  Not intentionally but I was at a work drinks – drank water and ate a few olives – and then a drinks party – 2.5 glasses white wine but no food on offer.  I got home well after eleven and had a handful of almonds and, and I realise this probably sounds quite disgusting, a bowl of chickpeas and branston pickle!  Well I had no bread or crackers in the house.  Pretty much the only instant food I had were nuts, cucumber, lentils and chickpeas.  I didn’t want to start cooking just to drop into bed but I needed to eat something otherwise I’d have been too hungry to eat.  What prompted me to add pickle to chickpeas I don’t know – guess I thought I needed something to perk them up a little.  Don’t think I’ll be serving it at a dinner party though.

Stomach Cramps

Since yesterday I have been beset by stomach cramps.  The kind that mean I can’t stand up straight.  I’m not sure what’s going on.  Sort of like period pain only not.  I thought at first it was just ovulation pain but it seems to have continued and gone bilateral.

Bizarrely this morning despite the pain I had the most amazing munchies.  But now I’m feeling a bit queasy and don’t really feel like eating.

And Up Again

OK, so maybe this daily weighing thing really is bad for you.  I appear to have put on 4lbs since yesterday!  Now that really can’t be possible surely.

I think I’m ovulating at the moment, so I wonder if I can chalk it up to that.  Does that mean that each month I’m going to get bloated and carry water weight between ovulation and my period?  That would be two weeks out of four.  Two weeks in every month that I’m around half a stone heavier than the other two – good grief.

I guess the only thing to do is to bring the non-bloated baseline weight down so that even with the pre-menstrual increase I’m still a relatively decent weight.

Hmm, watching my body like this is proving to be an interesting journey

I don’t get it

I’m eating better, drinking less alcohol and exercising more than I was a couple of weeks ago and yet my weight appears to be going up not down.  It could be my scales (though the measurements aren’t changing either), or the fact that the first weight loss was post TOTM bloating, or maybe I’m bloating now – I know I’m ovulating.

Whatever the reason it’s very annoying and depressing.

On a positive note I saw some clients this week who haven’t seen me since the beginning of March and they all thought I’d lost weight.  As did someone else at the weekend.  So maybe I have – though I’m sure what I was wearing had something to do with it as well – it was very flattering.

Feeling Crap

Was so buoyed up by my weight loss in the first couple of weeks and now I’m really down.  I posted the stat at 12st 1lb but in truth it’s more like 12st 1.5lb   I guess it just goes to show that the odd icecream etc does count.  Though I don’t really understand why I lost in the first couple of weeks then when I also made some less than sensible food and drink choices.

Anyway, it’s keeping me on track to be focussed and sensible now.

Stats 4

Weight: 12st 1lb (169lb, 76.6kg)

Chest: 40″ (101.6cm)

Waist: 34″ (86.36cm)

Hips: 43″ (109.2cm)

Dress Size: 14-16 (UK)

Walk in the Sun

OK – so on Friday I repeated Thursday’s icecream thing.  Why?  How?  I just wanted immediate gratification.  And I compoundedthe less than helpful when trying to lose weight behaviour by snacking in the afternoon, going out for drinks (2 G&Ts, 1 white wine) and an antipasti platter then coming home and scarfing food left in the fridge.

All of which meant when I weighed myself this morning I was still 12st 2lb*.  Well this galvanised me into action and after my usual oats’n’seeds’n'fruit brekky I hopped on a train out to the countryside and walked about 7 miles in the heat of the day.   Wasn’t the speediest walk I’ve ever done as I wandered about lost a couple of times and kept stopping to explore interesting churches but was definitely better than pottering around the house snacking which is probably what I would have done otherwise.

Had a slice of ryebread, a banana and some handfuls of peas to keep me going on the trek.  (The peas scrumped from the pea fields I walked through – yum)
Got home tanned, dusty, sweaty and rather hungry! Appetite sated by a small bowl of millet pilaf with tomato salsa; 2 veggie sausages with salad; 2 glasses fruit smoothie (strawberries, blueberries, yoghurt, skimmed milk, a splash of pomegranate juice and a dash of elderflower cordial) and a handful of nuts.  Oh and two oatcakes.

Night, night, let’s see what the morning brings.

*I know, I know, weight fluctuates, daily weigh ins don’t necessarily reflect reality…yada, yada yada.  I never used to own a pair of scales, only weighed myself occassionally at friends’ houses or at the gym.  But hey, that behaviour meant I didn’t really notice that my weight was climbing up and up and up.  This way at the moment keeps me in check, stops me in my tracks, means I halt less than helpful behaviour.  It works for me for now so hey I’m sticking with it.